Today marks ANOTHER "first step" in bettering my condition.
For the 4th time in 7 years, sinalang nanaman ako sa MRI to know what's really the condition of my L4-L5 lumbar discs.
Nagtaka nga yung MRI technician sakin kanina, tinanong nya kung bakit andami ko na daw MRI. Wala akong nasagot.
Bakit nga ba? Na-realise ko na dati kasi, marami na akong "first step" in bettering myself.
Physical therapy dito, rehab doon. Pain killers dyan, tapos schedule ng MRI bukas. Magha-habol ng schedule ng doctor dahil nag-cancel, then ba-byahe naman the next day.
Sumusuko ako palagi kasi nakaka-pagod
It took me 7 years to finally say "I had enough of this pain." Sawa na kong tiisin yung nararamdaman ko. Ayoko na i-deny na hindi sya masakit. I will try again, pero this time dala dala ko yung hindi-susuko-attitude ko.
Parang yung trade ko lang sa SLI. I bought on Jan 10 ng past 3PM knowing na green candle siya magco-close.
But no. Nung 3:20 onwards, nag red. Inverted hammer pala. Oh well, let's see at what level will it find support.
Next day at 9:40AM, after kong lumabas sa MRI room, gap down at open si SLI. Need to sell as cut loss anytime is hit.
Talk about not giving up attitude pala ha. Pero come to think of it, I was able to learn with this trade too:
(+) Test buy yung unang tranche ko. It was the lowest allocation that my risk tolerance can take. Manageable port allocation skill unlocked!
(+) I'm not really used in executing trades via mobile. At least na exp ko na.
(+) Nagulat ako pero hindi ako nataranta nung nakita kong down ako ng -8%. I executed my sell order right away.
Needs improvement:
(-) Minimize or refrain from trading volatile stocks when I know I cannot attend to it
Hindi ako mawawalan ng pag-asa kung ang goal ko ay mag improve ang sarili. Maraming maling decisions along the way. Maraming baku-baku at bato-bato ang madadaanan ng paa ko.
I already know what it feels like giving up in looking for a solution. This time I wanna know what happens if I don't.
Susugat pero hindi susuko.
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